capricorn

furthermore, and this has no basis in recent events, when people ask me my birthday and then say "oh, a capricorn", like they suddenly know my inner workings and when i tell them that i think any bearing that my astrological sign might seem to have on my personality is just coincidence, i always hear "you would say that" and i ask why and they say "because you're a capricorn," i just feel so confounded. 

and look, i won't say that i'm right, because whatever, but i think coincidences are as interesting as the next person and sometimes it is fun to think that everything i do is following whatever path is laid out for me, but i just don't feel it, like i can accept that it might be true, but it just doesn't resonate.

so i think it is confining to put someone into a category and then define them by it, like oh she's a blond and just leave it at that, like that explains her character. and i am not sure who we're talking about.

a beginning, or: better late than never

i haven't ever been able to keep a journal consistently and sometimes i try, like when i'm on a trip somewhere, but i don't ever pick them up and read them again. and actually, i do, but they embarrass me sometimes so i don't make it a habit. i think starting a blog might result in a similar scenario and i don't want to doom it to fail from the outset, but humans and probably other living things come to the realization that eventually they will die, so as long as this blog has that sense of perspective everything will turn out fine.

and boy if this isn't the second instance of me being late in picking up a cultural trend, because i flipped the rear wheel on my bicycle around today to ride with a fixed gear, but i have to say (and whether or not it is true i have to say it), i just wanted to see what all the fuss was about. that goes for the blog as well.